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Presence

While the moon won’t be at its fullest until tomorrow night at 10:30 p.m. ET, it was hard to ignore her presence as she rose above the tree line early this evening. My eyes were drawn to the horizon and when I caught sight of that massive orb rising in the eastern sky, I felt a direct connection between it and my heart.

Tomorrow’s full moon is 2020’s 13^th full moon. It’s time to say goodbye.

It’s interesting to note how some objects and some people don’t need to say or do a thing in order to have an influence on their surroundings. Every time I look at the moon, no matter what its phase, I feel a reaction inside myself. Sometimes it’s wonder and awe. Other times it’s delight. Sometimes – not often, but occasionally – it’s a sense of foreboding.

Whatever reaction the moon has on me inevitably comes down to its presence.

This concept applies similarly to humans. It’s fascinating to witness the effect some people have on their surroundings simply by showing up and being themselves. Their mere presence has the power to shift attitudes or change minds.

Full Moon Seeing Its Future – Photo: L. Weikel

Yearning

As we walked this evening, I found it difficult to tear my eyes away from the moon. The shadows she cast were stark and profound. There was no wishy-washy doubt lingering between light and dark. Our shadows, leading us forward since the moon was peering over our shoulders, were crisp and certain. They knew where we were going.

Sensing a slight dimming of the moon’s brilliance at one point, I looked up and saw clouds flirting and taking shape around and beyond her. As I watched, it looked ever so much to me as though the clouds took the form of a waning crescent ‘ahead’ of the moon itself – indeed, a crescent with a classic ‘man-in-the-moon’ face. For the life of me, it looked like the full moon was chasing its future, which in its own way was yearning to move forward, cloud arms outstretched toward an invisible goal.

Reaching Forward – Photo: L. Weikel

Take Advantage

It feels important for us to take advantage of the next few days to contemplate what we want to lean toward this coming year. Where is our shadow leading us? What adventures do we yearn to pursue?

I’m reminded of the dance between Jupiter and Saturn. As we’re well aware, Jupiter has been pursuing Saturn, leaning toward it, and it finally managed to catch its prize one week ago today in the Grand Conjunction.

It was quite surprising then, tonight, to witness just how far Jupiter has left Saturn in its dust in the mere seven days since that conjunction.

I wonder if we’ll slingshot forward toward our dreams just like Jupiter in 2021?

Jupiter (left) whizzing past Saturn – Photo: L. Weikel

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Onion Snows and Messages

I’m ready for spring.

Yeah, I know. Join the crowd, Lisa.

We’ve not even had a hard winter (in my opinion), and yet I’m ready for the curtain to be lowered on it. In fact, I think we got off pretty easily this year. Yeah, we may have one more good snowstorm (and when I say ‘good’ I mean really good – like over a foot of snow at least). But even if we do get a couple more snowstorms before our patience is rewarded with an abundance of colors and sounds, buzzes and buds, they’ll probably just be ‘onion’ snows.

That makes me smile. Do people even use that term anymore? Obviously, it was coined to describe one of those snowstorms in late March through mid April that might leave a couple of inches on the ground, but which melts by mid-day. It’s called an ‘onion’ snow because it serves as an insulating blanket and then watering system for one of the earliest crops of the season: onions.

Wow.

From Onion Snows to Car Stories

You can tell I don’t feel like talking about ponderous topics tonight. Ha – I’m so transparent! I can’t hide anything from you guys.

I do have another car story for you, but I’m not going to tell it tonight. My Prius employed creative license and a rather impressive dramatic flair yesterday to bring home an admonition I’ve received recently from a variety of messengers. I mean: you can’t make this stuff up.

But I need to give it a few days to settle in before I write about it.

Perhaps I’m feeling a need to formally acknowledge receipt of the message before I go talking about it? I’m not sure.

Some Obvious Messages and Some Painful Ones

I actually feel like I’ve been bombarded with messages lately. Some have been obvious. Some have been painful and potentially life-path changing. Given what unfolded yesterday, I’m guessing that Spirit was assuming I wasn’t listening. And truth be told, maybe I was blowing them off.

It can be distressing to have Spirit ‘call you on your shit.’

Which makes me wonder why it’s sometimes so hard to do what we know we should do; need to do; must do. It’s especially vexing when the thing we’re being told we should do, need to do, must do is something we yearn to do.

What’s With the Desire for Comfort?

That tells me that it must be more comfortable to be in a somewhat dark place, hunkering down fearfully, worried about the implications of what might happen if we listen to the messages, than it is to just burst up out of the darkness and do something different.

Perhaps it is comfortable. Yeah, I can see that maintaining the status quo can produce a rut that’s familiar, if nothing else. Perhaps not snuggly comfortable, but known.

Onion Snow? Or Avalanche.

Yet I yearn to listen, to poke through my resistance like the first green blades of crocus and daffodil leaves that revealed themselves today from under the crusted, dirty snow of last week. But I don’t know if I can do it.

I was all psyched Sunday night. I saw what I’d unwittingly achieved for liberation of my own awareness, and I could taste the possibility of implementing some of the messages I’ve been receiving (from inner and outer messengers). And then it all shut down.

Maybe what fell on my head was just an onion snow. Or maybe it was a freaking avalanche. I’m not sure yet.